“What do you want to be when you grow up?”

This question has been asked of children millions of times. Chances are, if you’re reading this, you’ve had this posed to you at numerous points in your life, from teachers, parents, guidance counselors, neighbors, friends. It subtly implies to kids that the days of cartoons and sugary cereals will one day be nigh, and that soon they will be required to perform as a functioning member of a society that they have only caught bursts of insight into through commercial breaks and listening to their parents’ complaints around the dinner table.

I grew up on this question. Thrived on it. I knew my answer and centered my life around it. I was under no illusion that it would be an easy road, but I knew for certain what I wanted to be.

Three decades and some spectacular failures later, I’m sitting down with my own young children, and it’s clear to me:

I’ve been answering the wrong question my whole life.

Now, this isn’t to say that anyone failed in my upbringing, or even that I failed myself (time will tell on that account). But societally, we judge the worth of our children based on what they are going to be or where they are going to go. Graduation programs list in bolded typeface where students are going to college. LinkedIn profiles list our job titles beneath our names. At places like Harvard – where I attended the Kennedy School of Government – there is even an entire class titled “How to Be a Politician.”

What I have come to learn is that this structure is wrong. It is harmful. And it is driving most of the things that are wrong around us.

When I was on active duty in the Navy, I was something of a loudmouth and ended up falling in with a rough crowd – my fellow irreverent raconteurs, the “innovators” in the service. This was, in large part, a reaction to my naive entry into the armed forces; I thought I would enter a military officer corps where everyone spent every moment of their lives trying to solve problems and achieve greatness; where people could do anything that they put their minds to. This was probably the result of listening to 18 years of my dad’s experiences in the National Guard and a healthy dose of the movie “Back to the Future.”

And it just so happens that, as I was learning more about this crowd of innovators, I came upon the example of US Air Force Colonel John Boyd. Progenitor of modern fighter aircraft tactics and disruptive innovator of his day, Boyd famously never made it past O-6 despite having more of an impact on the service than nearly any Air Force officer before or since. This was largely due to Boyd’s bold claims and uncomfortable truth-telling.

Because of his success and outspokenness, Boyd frequently fielded requests for mentorship from younger Air Force officers. They would invariably come to him looking for advice about career assignments and duty stations. Boyd, as the story goes, would tell them the following:

“Tiger, one day you will come to a fork in the road and you’re going to have to make a decision about which direction you want to go. [He raised his hand and pointed.] If you go that way you can be somebody. You will have to make compromises and you will have to turn your back on your friends. But you will be a member of the club and you will get promoted and you will get good assignments. [Then Boyd raised his other hand and pointed in another direction.] Or you can go that way and you can do something – something for your country and for your Air Force and for yourself. If you decide you want to do something, you may not get promoted and you may not get the good assignments and you certainly will not be a favorite of your superiors. But you won’t have to compromise yourself. You will be true to your friends and to yourself. And your work might make a difference. To be somebody or to do something. In life there is often a roll call. That’s when you will have to make a decision. To be or to do? Which way will you go?”

I have referened this quote often and in many different pursuits. I thought that I had centered my ethos around it. I’ve used it in military uniform, as a Congressional staffer, and as a candidate for public office. Do you want to be someone? Or do you want to do something?

But I began to recognize in myself that I wasn’t really living up to this ethos – not fully. After leaving active duty military service, I embarked on a campaign for the US House of Representatives. Though I had good intentions for running – as Congressman, I could “do something” in a number of policy areas – my focus for years was on fulfilling the answer to that childhood question: “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

For me, that was a Congressman.

And so, in 2019 when I launched my campaign, I felt like I was finally doing what I said I would do to all those teachers, parents, guidance counselors, and everyone else – I was going to be what I wanted to be when I grew up.

But, of course, as often happens, we don’t always succeed at hard things. Running for office, especially after leaving active duty, was incredibly hard – on my family, my relationships, and my health. After a year on the trail, despite some big milestones, I made the decision to end the campaign. That was hard, too, and the years since have been equally hard, in their own, circuitous ways.

When you focus so much of your life on who or what you want to “be,” and it doesn’t work out for you, you can feel adrift, listless, and broken. Losing – or, more accurately, not winning – a race for Congress is a pretty clear signal that you won’t “be” what you wanted to “be,” but for many people, it isn’t so cut-and-dry. Some people work for years at a job they don’t love or in a role that doesn’t fit because they think it will allow them to “be” what they want to “be” (wealthy, CEO, famous) – only to slowly (too slowly) realize that they’re old and sad and maybe won’t ever be that thing. This fuels everything from mid-life crises to the epidemic of mental health struggles.

The solution here is to realize that John Boyd’s advice doesn’t just apply to military servicemembers. It’s a prescription for a fulfilling and healthy life. There will be plenty of people who get to “be someone,” as Boyd points out; we may or may not be lucky enough to be those people, and, oftentimes, whether or not we can be may be outside of our immediate control.

But Boyd shows us another way: “to do something.” We can control our purpose. A purpose endures and can’t be conquered by life’s inevitable failures. A purpose is something that we own and can’t be taken from us even if we don’t get that big promotion or win that big election. It’s something that we can work on, show progress for, and take pride in our results.

Your “do something” might be large: to end global hunger, to eradicate homelessness in the United States, to seek justice for survivors of sexual assault and trauma. Your “do something” might be smaller or more localized: to beautify your hometown, to help neighbors with medical care, to tutor and educate others. Or to raise your kids into good humans, with a purpose to “do something” of their own in life.

You might have many purposes. You might have one. But large or small, many or few, all purposes are equal.

To my own kids, though, I’ve come to realize that neither the question “who do you want to be?” or even the better question “what do you want to do?” are quite right. Because the onus isn’t on them – it’s on me, to introduce them to people and model in myself what others can be and what the fullest extent of humankind can do.

I don’t want you to be an astronaut. I want you to explore.

I don’t want you to be a doctor. I want you to help people.

I don’t want you to be the president. I want you to bring others together to do bold things.

I don’t want you to be someone. I want you to live a life that you can look back on with pride and say, “Yeah dad, I did something.”

The 106th Giro d’Italia ended yesterday, the first of three global cycling Grand Tours alongside Le Tour de France and La Vuelta a Espana. After 21 stages, including some of the worst weather in the history of the event, Slovenian Primoz Roglic edged out Welshman Geraint Thomas on the penultimate stage – a mountainous Individual Time Trial – to win the maglia rosa (pink jersey) as overall general classification winner.

I followed the race closely for three weeks. So, in the spirit of threes, here are three important lessons that us mere workweek-mortals can take from the incredible spectacle that was the Corsa Rosa:

1) Be ready. Belgian and World Champion Remco Evenepoel was widely considered the favorite to win the Giro, romping to victory in the Stage 1 and Stage 9 individual time trials. However, COVID caused him to abandon the race after Stage 9. The next man up, Tao Geoghegan of Britain, crashed out of the race in horrific fashion barely a stage later. Halfway through the race, the script completely changed: three men – Roglic, Thomas, and Portugese champion Joao Almeida – found themselves competing closely for their first Giro victories when they were barely discussed as potential race winners just days before.

Prussian military strategist Carl von Clausewitz once said that “no plan survives first contact with the enemy.” Victory – whether in cycling, war, or our careers – is rarely the result of a flawless and comfortable plan. We must be ready to perform when opportunity shows up, because it may not happen when we expect it – or when we plan for it.

2) Believe in yourself. Primoz Roglic is no stranger to Grand Tours or individual time trials, having won multiple ITT stages and an Olympic Gold Medal. But, poised at the start line of Stage 20’s ITT 26 seconds behind race leader Geraint Thomas, all the global cycling world could talk about was a different ITT performance by Roglic.

In 2020, leader of the grandest of bike races – Le Tour de France – by a wide 59 seconds, Roglic was in the yellow jersey on the penultimate stage – also a mountainous time trial – when disaster struck. He had an exceptionally poor day on the bike, and upstart-fellow-Slovenian Tadej Pogacar had an exceptionally good one; the latter stole victory in the Tour de France by beating Roglic by more than 2 minutes in the time trial, an epic reversal of fortune that left Primoz devastated.

Fast forward to the Giro 2023 and yet another mountainous individual time trial that would decide the winner of the entire race. Since his 2020 Tour de France, Roglic had endured a string of terrible luck – crashing out of multiple TDFs, the Vuelta, enduring injuries, and being relegated to co-leader on his own team. The specter of his 2020 performance loomed large for the cycling public. But not for Roglic.

Roglic smashed every expectation on Stage 20 of the Giro, beating race leader Thomas by an incredible 40+ seconds to win both the stage and the General Classification. Not even a mechanical issue halfway up the mountain, which caused him to come to a full stop, could keep Roglic from victory.

In our own lives, we often have cause to doubt ourselves. Sometimes things don’t go according to plan, sometimes we embarrass ourselves, sometimes we end up on the losing side. But doubt doesn’t have to define us. Ignore the doubters and believe in yourself. Doubt is not destiny!

3) Be a best friend. The final day of the Giro – Stage 21 – took the riders around a beautiful course in the Italian capital of Rome, the Eternal City. Under the backdrop of the Roman Colosseum, this was to be a day for the sprinters – the larger, more powerful riders who excel on flatter courses for which raw power-output and team positioning are the decisive factors for victory.

Just a week before, Isle of Man sprinter Mark Cavendish announced that he was retiring from cycling at the end of the year. Perhaps the greatest sprinter in history, Cavendish has won more Grand Tour stages than all but three men and won his first stage as a professional at the Giro 15 years before. Troubled by injuries and changing teams, the sprinter suffered through the entirety of Giro 2023 without being much in contention for any sprint stage victories.

The key to a sprint victory is a good “lead-out” – teammates who sacrifice themselves by riding exceedingly hard in the run-in to the finish line in order to get a sprinter up to top speed so that they can win the race. Unfortunately for Cavendish on Stage 21, as the race approached 1 km to go, he was down to just one teammate in his “lead-out” train.

That is, until Geraint Thomas took over. Thomas – who, as mentioned before, had lost the Giro in heartbreaking fashion a stage earlier in the individual time trial – rode for a different team but found himself at the front of the race. He looked back and saw his good friend and fellow countryman, Mark Cavendish, with only one teammate left, and thought, “let’s help a brother out.”

Thomas jumped to the front of Cavendish’s lead-out train and helped pull him into perfect position, expending every last ounce of energy he had after three weeks in the mountains of Italy for his friend. Cavendish executed the rest and, on the final stage of his final Giro d’Italia ever, took the victory.

Friendship can be hard. A lot has been written about the difficulties males in certain societies have in developing close friendships. But the bond between Thomas and Cavendish is a powerful example of how important friendship can be, not just because of a successful bike race, but because of the embrace between the two men after the finish line.

If you have the choice between being a friend or being a stranger to someone, choose friend. Not because you might be able to transact something from them later in life, but because good friends enrich the soul, inspire our hearts, and look after us.

And if you’re lucky enough to make that choice and get that chance to be a friend, don’t just be any friend.

Be a best friend.

I recently spent some time in our nation’s capital. A not-so-insignificant amount of that time was spent walking behind a middle-aged man on the National Mall. As we both took in the awesome views of the taxpayer-funded monuments and memorials, he with his family and I with mine, he kept up an incessant monologue about the need to, among other things, harm the President, his family, and many other Democratic members of Congress. On his back, he wore an olive-drab green shirt with the words “Land Of The Free, Because Of The Brave” stenciled on.

I’m not sure if this man ever served in uniform. Maybe he did; maybe he has relatives who did. All that is irrelevant to this fundamental point:

Military service – whether your own or that of others – is not a Get-Out-Of-Citizenship-Free Card. Military service is not a pawn in your desultory game of exclusionary-politics-as-everything. Military service does not validate – nor does it excuse – purposeful malice.

At its most elemental level, service is about caring for others before yourself. That many of us did this on a field of battle, on a ship at sea, or on an aircraft high above the earth’s service for a period of time does not absolve us of the call to serve after we hang up the uniform. If anything, post-service life calls us to be positive examples for selfless service in every facet of American life in every village, town, and city in our country.

To be clear, civic virtue is not the absence of political disagreement. Rather, it is in taking the time to respect people who are different than us and think different than us…and finding a way to co-exist and work towards that “more perfect Union” our founders wrote of so many years ago.

But civic virtue is under large-scale attack every day. Large swaths of our country are stuck in echo chambers charged by feedback loops of negativity, “othering,” and thinly-veiled calls for harm against an expertly-curated “them.” Our fellow Americans are seen as less-than-full-citizens if they choose to be their full and authentic selves in public and threatened with vigilante violence. We treat government like a reality show to be watched from the outside rather than a deliberate act that we all must participate in.

If we are to continue to be the “Land Of The Free,” we cannot simply rely on those who volunteer to put on a uniform and serve in the military. We must expand the membership of “The Brave” to include all those who choose to come together and reject these attacks on civic virtue. We cannot wear the t-shirt if we aren’t still actively engaged in the campaign for selfless, humble, inclusive service to our fellow citizens and the country we come together to form. Citizenship is a choice; it does not end once military service has ended, or because someone else served for us.

Some may choose to serve as a sailor, soldier, airman, guardian, coast guardsman, or Marine, but all can choose to be an active, positive citizen of the United States. As we approach Memorial Day 2023, choose to serve.

Yesterday, a 21-year old Air National Guard member from Massachusetts was identified as the alleged leaker of classified documents that has appeared in multiple media outlets. The Airman allegedly shared these documents in a racist, sexist, and homophobic Discord chat group. A deeper dive into this group by The Washington Post shows that the Airman likely wasn’t posting the documents as some sort of premeditated plot to work with America’s adversaries, but for another reason:

Clout.

What is clout? Clout is the definable level of popularity or notoriety one develops on social media. It can be measured in clicks, likes, retweets, watches, bookmarks, or whatever other metric matters to the user. “Clout-chasing” is the act of developing sharable media for the sole purpose of attaining clout, similar to what you may have known in the past as “clickbait.”

At its core, clout is just the latest, modern adaptation of humankind’s evergreen needs for belonging, acceptance, and recognition. Society recognizes certain sources of clout as admirable: awards and published works after discoveries, winning elections to public office, breaking the tape at a track race.

But there is a dark side to clout that has been on full display this week. It’s the side that seeks the ends of fame or notice or importance with little or no regard for the means. It’s how a young American from a patriotic family can allegedly spit in the face of that patriotism by illegally sharing classified documents. It is also a symptom of a much larger problem.

There are generally two sources of motivation. People are either driven by intrinsic or extrinsic motivation.

Intrinsically motivated people set goals and accomplish tasks to better themselves or achieve some standard they have set. They seek (mostly) positive, personal growth. Intrinsic motivation also isn’t limited to the individual; one can find intrinsic motivation in performing at their best to support a team. This is the core of healthy, honorable military service.

Extrinsically motivated people are not necessarily bad. In fact, we are all probably extrinsically motivated at one time or another, such as when we ask for higher pay or chase one of the sources of admirable clout mentioned above. But social media and constant connectivity has proliferated clout for clout’s sake; the means are irrelevant if the end result is a larger Twitter following, more website clicks, or more donations to a campaign or cause.

This latter concept of clout, derived from extrinsically motivated and dishonorable people, is what led to things like the January 6th insurrection, the poisoning of American political discourse, and the selling or posting of classified data.

We need to stop this trend dead in its tracks.

Clout, in and of itself, is neither a problem nor an excuse. What we must do is separate clout-chasers – those for whom attention or importance is the sole end – from those who obtain clout while striving honorably for a separate goal or end.

It’s time to stop clicking or liking or sharing content simply because it’s what we want to hear. In the hours after his arrest, Marjorie Taylor Greene made the mind-numbingly daft decision to paint the alleged leaker as some kind of hero. Her tweet has been viewed nearly 1 million times – which was exactly the point of her sending it. MTG, as she’s referred to in shorthand, is cut from the same cloth as the alleged leaker: clout-chasing is the end for her, and more people that click or react to what she says – even if they react negatively! – the more clout she receives.

This also goes for people on our side of the partisan ideological divide, regardless of which side you are on. Liberal commentators who make wild or baseless claims are clout-chasers; do not interact with their content. Conservative commentators who tweet heinous missives about women or LGBTQ+ people, or who dehumanize their political opposition are clout-chasers; do not interact with their content. These folks are also related to the snake-oil salesman of yore; charlatans who peddled needless wares back in the day or YouTube-famous fitness “influencers” of today who make wild claims in paid ads that don’t actually help anyone achieve their goals.

The most effective strategy that we have for dealing with clout-chasers is to withhold their clout. Force them into more face-to-face interactions, so that folks can more easily see through their charade. This is tough to do for someone like MTG, who awakens the darkest of creatures to support a cravenly anti-American platform. But it is something we absolutely must do in our armed forces.

Engage your people. Talk about values. Recognize people who are honorable in your unit. Pay attention to those who retreat into their phones or computers or gaming systems. Uphold the standards of service.

There are certain things – like racism, sexism, and white supremacy – that are absolutely incongruent with military service. I’m not saying that the current manifestation of clout-chasing is, too, but if we must act now to reinforce the honorable in our ranks and in our society before it’s too late.

On Friday, I (finally) had my signed DD-214 in hand. On Tuesday, I announced that I was running for the US House of Representatives.

That was my life exactly four years ago.

If whiplash had a spokesperson, it was me. But for all intents and purposes, I felt fine. Sure, I was leaving a career that I loved, having served with honor for more than a decade. But I was doing something else that I was sure that I’d love and that I’d dreamt of since the first grade: entering the political arena to represent my neighbors in government. I hadn’t anticipated cutting it so close between leaving active duty and starting the campaign; that ended up being more of a function of the military personnel system taking a lot longer than anticipated.

I thought I knew what I was getting into. I had been a political junkie since I was a kid. I had majored in political science at Annapolis. Heck, I even took the Harvard Kennedy School course aptly named “How to Be a Politician.” I did my “rolodexing,” hired (mostly) top-notch campaign consultants, and had started calling friends and family to begin filling my fundraising war chest. Sure, I was looking down a competitive, three-way Democratic primary where I was viewed as an outsider. But I had the plans, knowledge, and belief that nobody was going to work harder than me on the campaign trail.

I knew that I could win.

But I did not win.

So what happened? What did I learn? And what can I share with others to help them go from outside the political machine to election day with the most success?

A few words up front: my experience, and therefore my bias in writing, is with a federal campaign. I was a full-time candidate, which means I did not have a job while I campaigned. While campaigning for non-federal office may be different, I believe the principles are the same, since you are trading the need to raise less money in, say, a campaign for the county legislature, but you also likely have a regular job that will take up most of your time.

What Happened

I love campaigning. Or rather, I should say, I love talking with people about how government works for them, and how it could work for them better.

I love helping people, and for me, the act of running for office was an exercise in making people feel seen and heard. I started the campaign by helping people in the coastal village of Fair Haven fill up and deliver sandbags to defend against historic flooding. I held a public town hall on gun violence just days after a young neighbor was killed by a gun, bringing together a grieving community. I brought my kids out to campaign for underdog candidates for county executive, county legislature, and city council.

I also love communicating about ideas. I relished every opportunity to take part in public forums with other candidates and community members to talk about policy, framing our agenda, and how we could reach people with our message. I tried to eschew the typical politician-speak that you hear from many candidates by being up-front, honest, and precise about policy and messaging.

And on the campaigning, people, and communicating fronts, I feel like we were successful. We developed loyal volunteers and even brought people to tears at our events. We routinely felt like we won the room at candidate forums, building momentum and interest in our campaign. And we raised nearly half a million dollars, won more than two dozen local endorsements, and hired a passionate staff of committed public servants – all in less than 9 months.

Still, we didn’t win. I ended the campaign a few months before the primary election, opting to salvage what little money and goodwill I still had rather than burning it all to the ground in an increasingly negative, three-way race. There were many reasons for this; it’s important to reflect on at least three of them here today.

What I Learned

First and foremost, you need to understand what kind of district you are running in because it will give you some ideas on what kind of campaign you need to run. I thought I understood the district: majority-rural, post-industrial, blue-collar with an aging population of reliable voters and a fierce, young core around a handful of universities.

And while that information is probably an accurate representation of New York’s old 24th Congressional District, it omits an important political fact: NY-24 was a “D+3” district according to the Cook Partisan Voter Index and was one of the Top 3-5 most competitive House seats in America. While Democrats enjoyed a voter enrollment advantage, this was a solidly “purple” district.

What does that mean for prospective candidates? For Democrats, there are really three types of districts: solidly “red” ones where a Democrat wins less than 5-10% of the time, solidly “blue” ones where a Democrat wins more than 90% of the time, and purple districts like NY-24 where party control splits regularly.

In red districts, Democrats frequently run as “sacrificial lambs,” if you’ll forgive the metaphor. Without much hope for victory, candidates often run and hope for their Republican opponent to make a colossal or disqualifying mistake. While there isn’t a great deal of support for these candidates in the General Election, they can serve to organize and motivate the local party infrastructure to show up and maybe win a surprise election once every few decades. Democrats win in red districts through significant cross-over voters, using persuasion and name recognition to outweigh the partisan priors of voters.

In blue districts, the real election is not in November; it is the Primary Election. In order to be on the ballot in November, Democrats must first defeat other Democrats in the primary. This can be tricky, but it is mostly a numbers game – excite and mobilize the most Democratic voters on Primary Day, and you are the winner. Candidates who raise a lot of money – and can therefore raise their name recognition through paid media – can be successful in blue districts, but big fundraising is not always a silver bullet here; upstart candidates with a better connection to reliable Democratic primary voters can win the ground game despite deep-pocketed opponents.

In purple districts, more often than not, it’s all about fundraising. These are competitive districts in November, and Democratic insiders are very attuned to a candidate’s fundraising totals because of what they think it means about a candidate’s chances of winning the General Election. Of course, Democrats who are outraised by Republicans in purple districts can – and often still do – win, because fundraising absent name recognition and a compelling, organizing campaign principle is pyrrhic fundraising. But a culture of “money over everything” persists in these Democratic circles and is the driving factor towards getting through a Democratic primary in a purple district.

So, while I raised about $500,000 during my campaign, my opponents raised about $100,000 more than me during that same time period. There are many reasons for this, and I’ve thought about them all often – time off for a new baby, not committing to an aggressive fundraising schedule, fewer political connections and favors to call in, etc – but they are, at the end of the day, simply excuses for the end result that I was third out of three candidates in overall fundraising.

Second, you must understand the political machinery wherever you are running. In some places, this is a handful of Democrats that get together regularly in the basement of a church. In other places, this is a well-oiled machine of block captains, bosses, and committee members who serve as party gatekeepers. This machine is often a shortcut for voter mobilization; if the local Democratic committee or prominent, well-known local Democrats support you, rank-and-file Democratic primary voters will take note. If you are running in a primary election, winning the preponderance of support from Democratic committee members is important.

Third, and finally, all of this shit is hard. The act of putting yourself out there is a highly vulnerable exercise and tying it to a campaign where people constantly weigh in on your worth in the form of money, time of day, and votes is exhausting. Maintaining the kind of fundraising schedule to be competitive in a purple district is bordering on insanity. Add a family or outside job to the mix? It’s certifiable.

What to Do Different

I’ve discussed the three biggest things I learned on the campaign trail: money, machines, and madness. While I maintain that it is difficult to learn these lessons without first being a candidate yourself, here are three practices you can put into place now if you are thinking about running for office soon.

First and foremost, develop a mental health plan. This is the most important aspect of running for office. Yes, you need money. Yes, you need votes. But if you don’t have a solid handle on your mental and physical health when you start, you are going to have a much more difficult time raising money and garnering votes.

Second, if you’re in a purple district, commit to an aggressive fundraising schedule. By “aggressive,” I mean at least 60-80 hours per week at the start of your campaign for federal candidates. This might seem unnatural – it certainly did for me! – but the money you raise early on will enable you to do the things that you love later in the campaign with less stress, i.e. talking with people, developing connections, and persuading voters.

Finally, learn the rules of the game early. If you’re in a purple district, there are likely significant party gatekeepers to the process of running for office; unfortunately, these folks can be proxies for hundreds or even thousands of primary voters. Like it or not, most of these people do not care where you served, how you served, or how good your ideas are; they care about what you will do for them and how your candidacy will enhance their own power or prospects. Money talks and memory lingers; candidates who can cut big checks to committees or elected officials can more easily show their value than the rest of us, and those who can point to wealthy or powerful family members with connections to the local committee or elected establishment have a much easier time, too. Yes, this is absolutely disgusting, but as one particularly pernicious party insider once told me: “that’s just how it is around here.”

Why This is All Pretty Fucked Up

If you don’t come from money or a politically connected family, the harsh reality is that you are going to have to work many times harder than other, more privileged candidates to attain recognition or achieve success on the campaign trail. Privilege in elected politics is vicious; entire “legacies” are erected upon it and the good-paying, taxpayer funded salaries it ensures. There is a reason that power corrupts and that many of the most powerful politicians in your local area are likely the descendants of some other powerful politician.

During my campaign, I thought I did a pretty good job as a candidate – raising decent money, showing up for other people, and articulating a Democratic message that could win a General Election against a popular and entrenched incumbent. But I am under no illusions that I was the best candidate in my congressional district. The more I traveled and talked and connected, the more I saw of the thousands of volunteers, workers, and leaders in our communities who probably should be representing us in public office: the parents, advocates, and kind-hearted souls who do the lion’s share of the work ministering to people in various, essential aspects of life.

But these people don’t run for office, often because the very lessons learned I have laid out here preclude them from running altogether. They cannot afford to be a full-time candidate. They cannot afford to keep their kids in childcare for the entire day. They cannot afford the mental and physical toll that campaigns in our current, post-Citizens United era take on honest human beings.

And yet our country needs these people to represent us in government. We need people in government who serve others before themselves and who are less concerned with legacy than they are about policy. We need people in government who will work like hell to change the very system of running for political office I have described here so that it can be easier and less costly for more of the right kinds of people to run in the future.

So the biggest lesson that I learned from running for office so soon after leaving the military is that I do not, in fact, need to run for office to make this country better. If I can make the process of running for office more accessible, more understandable, and more successful for more of the right people? That’s the real win.

When I left active duty four years ago, I had a hard time accessing my benefits as a veteran. That difficulty was twofold:

1. The bureaucratic nightmare that is documenting and requesting a disability rating from the Department of Veterans Affairs
2. The internal guilt I felt that I was not worthy of veterans benefits despite 10 years of service that included multiple combat deployments

I am not alone, either. More than two-thirds of America’s veterans do not access the full breadth of the benefits they have earned by their service in uniform.

Sadly, today’s Washington Post Editorial Board opinion piece will make it less likely that more of these veterans will come home and access the care they have earned.

The Post’s argument goes something like this:

1. The budget for the Department of Veterans Affairs has steeply risen since 9/11
2. Disability benefits are roughly half of the VA’s budget
3. “Disabled veterans return to the workforce at nearly the same rate as veterans without disabilities.”
4. Therefore, if you want to work as a disabled veteran, you should forfeit your disability benefits.

The Post Editorial Board claims that “the moral responsibility Americans have to those who fought for the country is of diminished value if it does not align with the fiscal responsibility Americans have to keep their financial house safe and sound.”

But this is categorically false. And it’s a dangerously transactional view of morality.

Morals do not depend on “fiscal responsibility.” Morals depend on doing what is right.

First, let’s get one thing out of the way: fiscal responsibility is a noble virtue. Any government spending should be stewarded by responsible government officials, held accountable by the American people.

But let’s be clear: balancing the budget on the backs of America’s veterans is the height of immorality. The Post gets their logic exactly backwards: the time to save money on veterans benefits is not after the fact, when some technocrat thinks the budget totals are getting too high for their preference. The time to save money on veterans benefits was before committing American troops to large-scale combat operations overseas.

Let this be a lesson to the American people: wars cost money, and that money isn’t all paid up-front. There is a long tail to the American war machine; love the machine or hate the machine, veterans benefits are not to blame for your fiscal unease.

In the immediate term, I am worried that the Post’s decision to publish this piece will have a chilling effect on veterans seeking needed care. More than half of all veterans already pay out of pocket for care that should be free to them; more still do not even think to get needed care for themselves out of an outplaced notion that somehow they did not “earn it” properly or that there isn’t enough money to go around for everyone.

I spend so much time telling veterans that these fears are misplaced; that all veterans are deserving of their full benefits and that their country supports this unequivocally.

Unfortunately, the fear that veterans feel in accessing care and benefits was given a face and a name in the Washington Post Editorial Board. It is shameful, to say the least, but I am thankful for those who will continue to pick up the pieces and ignore this unnecessary addition to the public discourse.

Institutional inertia is a real thing. Whether you’re in the military or civilian world, organizations are imbued with all of the history, the hurt, and the hurdles they have acquired since their inception. This can be a daunting reality to contend with as a new hire.

There are a number of ways to be a new person in an organization. One of the benefits of military service is that, every 24-36 months, we have the opportunity to test our “onboarding” personas and collect lessons about what works and what doesn’t.

After dozens of job changes in the past two decades, I have learned that I am a “sit back and listen” kind of “new person.” This doesn’t always work well in every organization, but it allows me an opportunity to take stock of what I’m walking into, what is expected of me, and what my real challenges will be in a new role.

And in all that time, in all those job changes, here is what I have learned:

The leaders who do well are the leaders who love relationships.

I suppose we should pause for a moment and discuss what “doing well” as a leader means. On this site and whenever I write, I am not giving advice to people who simply want to maximize their own evaluations or fitness reports. I am not speaking to people who simply want to climb whatever ladder to personal success if before them. For me, “doing well” as a leader means leading a team to accomplish outsized goals. “Doing well” means making an impact that is personal, professional, and profound.

So why are we talking about institutional inertia and relationships? Because they are at the core of how we make an impact in any career field. Even the President of the United States needs to manage relationships to make an impact during her time in office.

We’ve all been on teams where it is well known that “this person/office/organization does not work with us.” And everybody has an excuse for why the relationship is the way it is. This can sound like:

“Headquarters requires us to work with this team and send a weekly update on our progress, but they are impossible to work with and give us shoddy work.”

“That project leader is an asshole and treats people outside of his team like garbage.”

“It is nearly impossible for us to get the truth from this other team, so we just go around them and cut them out of key meetings.”

Sometimes, our organizations have rivalries that cannot be managed away, such as with a market competitor.

But far too often, we accept toxic relationships when two teams are working towards the same goal. It could be a military mission, a political platform, or a round of seed funding. Institutional inertia can deliver us a poor relationship between two positions in different organizations, poisoning both teams.

In none of the organizations I have belonged to were we able to do well while accepting toxic relationships. It just does not work – or if it does, it does not work for long. The best leaders I have ever seen recognize the work they have to do while prioritizing relationship-building with those external entities that have plagued their team for so long.

Here are five ways that leaders can right the ship on toxic relationships – and learn to love them:

1. Adopt a learning mindset. Institutional inertia forces us to accept a one-sided telling of a situation; that can be a difficult thing to break, especially if we identify closely with the organization we are a part of (i.e. I’m a fighter pilot and all other non-fighter pilots are wrong; I am an AI expert and all other non-AI experts are wrong, etc.). The keys to manging even the worst of relationships are humility and curiosity. Be the first mover and ask the other leader or team for their perspective. What do they care about? How do they see the relationship? How can you improve in their eyes? Make sure you actually listen to what they have to say and ask follow-up questions.
2. Recognize. Sometimes, the other side of a toxic relationship just doesn’t feel seen by us. One of the best tools to correct this is just to say thanks or give credit to them. This can be both a private and public expression, but it must be authentic and meaningful.
3. Be deliberately honest. Once you have established rapport and listened to the other side, you need to assert your view of the situation, too. Be kind, but be honest, and allow the other team to be defensive if that’s their first reaction. Remember: if the view you are sharing is different than your team’s view, you need to follow-up internally and level-set with your own team on the progress you’re making with the other side and do a bit of internal persuasion, too.
4. Set shared goals. Once you’ve laid your cards on the table, set a few short-, medium-, and long-term goals together with the other team. This could be as simple as “receive updates regularly on Thursdays” or as complex as multi-faceted data sharing agreements. Couch these goals in the understanding you have achieved in the first few steps – whether that’s the understanding that you both need to satisfy the same boss in higher headquarters or meet the same quarterly revenue goals.
5. Don’t make it about you. I cannot stress this enough – if you are only working relationships to benefit you and your bottom line, you will fail. Maybe not right away, but people will see right through your inauthenticity. Don’t be that guy.

Relationship management is my favorite part of being in a new organization or team. It can be so difficult to feel like you’re contributing while you’re trying to learn a new organization’s rules, culture, and knowledge base. One of the easiest and most impactful things we can do from the outset is build or repair relationships for our teams.

As leaders at any level, we should never accept toxic relationships as inevitable or “just the way it is.” While this post has dealt with mostly external-to-the-team relationships, we should accept toxic relationships within our team even less! Dig deeper, put in the time, and turn your hurdles into helpers. Leaders who learn to love relationships are the most effective leaders in any organization.

Hey there, defense peeps. It’s your boy Nick Miller coming at ya with some hot takes on quantum science and its potential applications in the Department of Defense.

Now, I know what you’re thinking: “But Nicky boy, isn’t quantum just a bunch of debunked sci-fi nonsense?” Well, let me tell you something: you don’t need to be Eye-stein to understand this stuff. Quantum is real, it’s happening now, and it’s about to revolutionize how we do defense.

Now, if you know me, you know that I believe in a lot of things that people just aren’t there on yet. For example, I believe that horses are from outer space. With that in mind, let’s discuss two other commons myths…these are about quantum:

Myth number one: quantum is only relevant for theoretical physicists with an overactive imagination. False! In fact, companies like Google and IBM are already building commercially available quantum computers that will transform computing as we know it.

Myth number two: Quantum will take years or even decades to become applicable to everyday life – Wrong! In reality, the era of practical quantum computing has already arrived in many scientific fields from drug discovery to materials design.

Now that we’ve talked about those crazy misconceptions, let’s discuss how quantum is actually being used right now, you crazy STEM girls:

1. Secure communications: Quantum cryptography enables unbreakable encryption by using the laws of physics to transmit messages securely. This technology would be particularly useful for high-level military and intelligence communication where secure transmission is crucial.

2. Navigation & timing: GPS signals are vulnerable to disruptions from both physical and electronic attacks, but quantum sensors offer a potential solution that can detect precise time and location even under harsh conditions.

3. Improved weather forecasting: Quantum computing drastically improve weather forecasting models through simulations that take into account complex atmospheric interactions with greater accuracy than current classical supercomputers allow.

Now sure, I could plan a military operation, conventional, with a bunch of forms on paper and line-of-sight communications…but then I grew up. Now I only want to plan a military operation that an algorithm would want. Straightforward. Efficient. Something that says, ‘I’m a machine here to win all the wars.” That’s why I’m keeping my eyes peeled on the next steps for quantum in national security:

1. Efficient logistics optimization: Quantum computers have the ability to solve complex logistical problems much faster than classical computers which could result in more efficient use of resources for massive supply chains responsible for supporting a global military presence.

2. Superior AI abilities – As neural networks trained and operated through conventional computing technologies reach their limitations due to the exponentially increasing amounts of data, quantum computers can handle such complex computations more efficiently. This would allow for faster and more robust artificial intelligence applications in areas such as decision-making, target recognition, and autonomous systems across a variety of defense contexts.

3. Quantum sensors – Low-cost quantum systems could detect threats ranging from stealth aircraft to hidden weapons by measuring subatomic particles that are supposed to be 100% predictable. In contrast to classical sensors which depend on photons or radio waves emitted by equipment under test (EUT), opportunistic measurements offer new possibilities for detection without requiring any additional energy usage or communication with the outside world.

Source: IBM

Oh, quantum entanglement. Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day? No, a summer’s day is not spooky action at a distance.

And who knows? Maybe someday we’ll all be wearing helmets powered by tiny little chirpy dudes who communicate with each other using quantum entanglement.

All I’m saying is I’ve seen the science. I believe the science. If you think about it, I’m a guy who gets science.

But don’t just take ol’ Nicky Blue Eyes’s word for it. Grab yourself a quantum scientist and talk about how your program office or unit is setting up to take full advantage of the coming quantum era.

*This post was written by ChatGPT 3.5 from the following prompt: “In the style of the character Nick Miller from the TV show ‘New Girl,” write a blog post of approximately 1,000 words outlining the current and future use cases of quantum science in national security.” Links are mine!

Alexi Pappas is one of my favorite people on the planet. Not just because she is an accomplished distance runner and role model for mid-pack bipeds like me. Not just because she relentlessly pursues big dreams like running in the Olympics, making and starring in a movie, or writing a book.

Alexi is one of my favorite people because she is open and honest about the realities of chasing big dreams.

In the clip above, she talks about how to handle the inevitable setbacks on the road to doing hard things. This is how she describes the “Rule of Thirds” through her Olympic coach:

“When you’re chasing a dream or doing anything hard, you’re meant to feel good a third of hte time, OK a third of the time, and crappy a third of a time. And if the ratio is roughly in that range, then you’re doing fine.”

When we’re doing hard things – whether that’s parenting, in the office, or training towards a physical goal – we can treat setbacks like the end of the world. Any time a particular session doesn’t go our way, it can seem like the world is crashing down around us.

But, as Alexi and her coach point out, the pursuit of anything truly meaningful in our daily lives is not meant to be a perfect, smooth path. And by overreacting to the bumps along the road, we can risk giving up on ourselves too soon and failing to achieve our goals – and I’d argue that giving up on yourself is a fate far worse than failing at one particular task or goal.

So here are a few tips to help you adapt the Rule of Thirds to your daily life, whatever your goals may be. When you feel yourself having a bad moment of parenting, a bad day at the office, or you can’t seem to hit your running splits or weightroom goals:

1. Zoom out. Remember that whatever moment you are in is just one moment. Put things into appropriate perspective and remember that the sample size of your life is much larger than this moment.
2. Reset. Take a few deep breaths. Pour yourself a cup of water or coffee. Put on some uplifting music. Recognize what you’re feeling, allow yourself to feel that way, and then remind yourself that the next moment – the next interaction with your kids, the next rep, the next milestone – is a new one, and it will be a better one.
3. Recover. This one is the trickiest. Give yourself some time to do a little self-diagnostic. Did you react poorly because you’re tired? Injured? Burnt out? The Rule of Thirds is all about putting the ups and downs of chasing big dreams into appropriate perspective, but if you feel consistently crappy for much more than a third of the time, you need to recover, and for that we need help. See a doctor, a therapist, or loved ones who can help you get back on track.

It also helps to be intentional and track your progress when chasing big goals. This will help you overcome the inevitable feeling that “nothing is going right.” If you can look at a training log, a journal, or something similar in those moments, you will have visual evidence that the single data point you are currently experiencing is an outlier.

It’s OK to feel crappy. It’s OK to just feel OK. And it’s OK to feel great, too! Don’t overstress about how you’re feeling – allow yourself to feel, grow, and continue striving for great things.

You can find Alexi’s book, Bravey: Chasing Dreams, Befriending Pain, and Other Big Ideas, here.

As parents, we often carry weight of our past traumas and experiences, many of which can be traced back to our own childhood. It is our responsibility to break the cycle, to ensure that our children do not suffer the same pain and shame that we once did. In my Medium post, “The First Shame I Felt, and Still Feel,” I shared my own experiences with shame and the impact it had on my life. Today, I want to talk about how we, as parents, can balance our mental health during our children’s early development, and why it is crucial to do so.

The first step in breaking the cycle of shame is to confront it head-on. We must examine our own childhood experiences and recognize how they have shaped our lives. This is not an easy task, but it is a necessary one. By acknowledging and understanding the roots of our shame, we can begin to heal and move forward.

It is essential to recognize that our mental health directly impacts our children’s development. As parents, we are their first role models, their guides, and their support system. If we are struggling with unresolved trauma, it can manifest in our parenting, potentially causing harm to our children. It is our duty to prioritize our mental health, not only for our own well-being but also for the well-being of our children.

Here are some strategies for balancing mental health during your children’s early development:

1. Seek professional help: If you’re struggling with unresolved trauma or mental health issues, consider seeking the guidance of a therapist or counselor. They can help you work through your past experiences and provide coping strategies for managing stress and anxiety. And the reality is: nearly everyone needs help working through either past trauma or the current difficulties of parenting – and many of us need help with both.

2. Practice self-care: Taking care of yourself is crucial for maintaining a healthy mental state. Make time for activities that bring you joy, relaxation, and a sense of accomplishment. This can include exercise, hobbies, or spending time with friends and loved ones. Love yourself – for some of us, the first step in this is to allow ourselves to be seen as somebody worthy of love.

3. Set boundaries: Establishing healthy boundaries with both your children and other adults in your life is essential for maintaining your mental health. Learn to say “no” when necessary, and prioritize your own needs and well-being. It is perfectly acceptable to decline something in order to do nothing (speaking for my fellow introverts)!

4. Communicate openly: Be open and honest with your partner or support system about your mental health struggles. Having a strong support network can make a significant difference in your ability to cope with stress and maintain a healthy mindset. Do not feel like you have to keep the struggles of parenting only to yourself; we are all feeling it, and we all need to talk more about it.

5. Educate yourself: Learn about child development and parenting strategies that promote a healthy and nurturing environment for your children. Understanding the impact of your actions on your children’s growth will help you make better decisions and avoid passing on your own traumas. A therapist or counselor can help you here, too.

6. Practice patience and forgiveness: This one is huge, and it is hard. Recognize that you are human, and you will make mistakes. Be patient with yourself and your children, and practice forgiveness when things don’t go as planned. This will help create a more positive and supportive environment for your family.

Our past experiences have shaped us, but they do not have to define us. We have the power to break the cycle of shame and create a better future for our children. We must be relentless in our pursuit of healing and growth. We must refuse to let our past traumas dictate the course of our lives and the lives of our children. We must be resolute in our belief that we are worthy of love, acceptance, and happiness – and that our children deserve nothing less.

We can change the narrative. We can rewrite our stories and those of our children. We can heal, grow, and transform.

By prioritizing our mental health, seeking help, and implementing coping strategies, we can create a nurturing and supportive environment for our families. It is our responsibility to break the cycle of shame and trauma and ensure that our children do not suffer as we once did. The shame stops here, and together, we can create a better future for ourselves and our children.